no one i know is thinking anywhere near the level you are, in terms of love, life, family, happiness, fulfilment etc. its so fucking good to know that someone is thinking about actually doing something worthwhile with they're life. good for you. and i dont doubt you actually will do something great too. i believe in fate. and karma.. things like that.. you only have so much control over your life.. you can work where you like, hang out with whoever, live where you want.. but who you meet and the things that happen to you throughout life is controlled by some greater force (whatever that may be.. god?... or insert your own 'greater power' here).. and i guess thats the beauty of it.. the important stuff (finding love, experiencing life etc) is left up to fate and karma so we dont have to freak out about that shit.. thats not our problem til it happens. so i reckon.. follow your dreams.. and whatever happens along the way is.. life.. live your dreams!